first record today and it will be hard because i feel like nothing …..
I look forward and know that the hospital is the only way for me to renew, regroup and re-look at my past present and future.
I know I’m going to be unhappy and everything will look too dark, but now I feel the darkness that is calling me to them more and more.
I still feel the urge to commit suicide or to do something bad for my drunk neighbour, even though I know it’s his choice and my past that makes me vulnerable.
I was with a psychologist and a doctor, and they wrote me a referral, and now I’m waiting for me to be taken to the hospital I need. month of closing or closing, and I believe this will help me move forward in my retirement life …..
To Be Continued
